What does my future hold?

I can't fall asleep anymore. It's driving me insane, and while I wait to fall asleep my head is going crazy with so much thinking. And so, at 1:51am while I try to get some rest I keep thinking of my plans for the future.
I've known what I wanted to do for 4 years now. It was difficult for me in middle school not knowing what my future holds. I'm a perfectionist and when it comes to my future I need everything planned and organized on paper. When grade 9 came around somehow I came across photgraphy. My dad is pretty into photography as a hobby so it kinda helped me find my muse. I always wanted to play around with his camera and eventually with my mcdonalds pay check I saved up for my first SLR camera. It arrived on my 15th birthday and I was ecstatic. The camera (in which I still own today) was crazy to learn. To me photography was just taking pictures, I thought the camera did all the hard work. Learning was a challenge. I'm still learning new things today. Now since I'm totally off topic... Aha. This year I'm graduating and I'm scared as hell (pardon my language). Planning for your future is scary! My dream future would go a little like so... Graduate highschool, take a year off and work. Maybe some simple as full time at Sears as a photographer in their portrait studio to an assistant photographer to someone who works downtown vancouver in a studio, do some of my own photography business on the side, after a year go to Langara college and go into their photo imaging program, after that (I think it's 2 years?) buy a loft downtown where I can live as well as have a studio and office for my photography :) that's where I hope to be in the next 5 years or so. If any of that works out. My main concern now is money and graduating. Hopefully God will bless me with some funds to fulfill my dreams. That, and work my ass off for that studio downtown, aha.

Now to bed.

everything.

I hope so.

trying to find a place in this world.

I dont know what i want, So dont ask me, cause im still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road,
im just walking. Trying to see through the rain coming down. Even though im not the only one, that feels the way i do.
Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know. I'll be strong, i'll be wrong, Oh, but life goes on. Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

- t swift

snap snap :)

This week has been pretty good photography wise. I got to shoot two shoots this week. The first was my pastor's family. They wanted some pictures of their boys. And there adorable! I don't usually take pictures of kids, and this was one of my firsts so it was harder than i thought. Those boys had so much energy which caused me to keep up with them. I took over 100 pictures and around 30 of them turned out. It was a challenge but i had so much fun with the boys. Here's a couple shots of them...

 

And then today i got the privilege to take pictures of my one longest friends miss taryn galloway :) She had asked me to take some pictures of her and her brother. I had so much fun with them. I'll be updating with those pictures to come. 

stronger

you should never forget about the past, everything happens for a reason. instead learn from the past, learn from your mistakes & learn from every experience in life. never forget those that have changed you either for the good or the bad because they have made you who you are. always remember that life is meant to be tough, to challenge you, and to make you stronger.

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa, just to let you know my canon 60D camera hasn't come yet. I understand your pretty busy and the elf's could have misplaced it. But if you can get it here asap that would be awesome. k thanks. Love, Savannah :)

hardest moments

One of the hardest moments in life is deciding whether you should give up, or try harder.

 

 

Have a very merry Christmas :)

Every year we wait for this day the day where we open the presents, where we eat meals with our families and get into the holiday spirit. And every year I always get caught up in the whole excitement of it all and always forget why we celebrate this holiday. We spend weeks and even months preparing for this and then as soon as the day passes we go back into the same routine. This year I want to continue this celebration, because even though today is the day we are meant to celebrate whynot do it everyday? He was the one who died on the cross for us and Christmas, Easter and Sundays are the only days we celebrate? My new years resolution is to keep my eyes and heart on God this year. I'm graduating and going into the real world soon. It's time I grow up and choose who I want to be. And I want to be the girl who is a good representation of God, so that others will take my example and follow him too.
I know pretty deep. Aha i'm just lying here in my bed, after all our presents have been openers, and just thinking about the real meaning of Christmas. Remember this holiday is meant to be spent with family and friends remembering Christ our saviour.
God Bless <3

wait for the Lord

all roads lead home at chritsmas

I CAN'T BELIEVE CHRISTMAS IS IN 2 DAYS. I've been so busy lately that I haven't had time to count the days until christmas. And now it's so close. Here's some pictures of my decorated house, actually it's not at all. Our small tree is sitting on our coffee table. We're really in the christmas spirit :)

mumford and sons

I don't have much to blog anymore but here's a tid bit of my day. I was going through my brothers CD's, being a pest i am and came across 'Mumford and Sons'. Don't get me wrong i've heard them before but listening to them i fell in love. I don't even know how to explain them their music is so catchy, calming and relaxing. Don't even get me started on their harmonies, insane. check them out sometime

knitter.

So i started this new obsession. knitting. well not exactly knitting, it's kinda fake knitting. All i do is wind thread around this circular thing. It is hard work, don't get me wrong. Anyway i made some for my family for Christmas and I'm thinking about making some for some extra cash. Let me know if you'd be interested, they'd defs be cheaper than 10.

thats what she said.

so true. hah.

never thought.

things change, and i'm sorry.

grow up?

Growing up your best friend becomes your worst enemy. Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Undies turn into g-strings and boxers. kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?...... When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst you could get from guys were cooties? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. The only drug you knew was cough medicine. Wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. The only things that hurt were skinned knees. And goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
And to think we couldn't wait to grow up.

Winter Break

Home, and incredibly tired. I went to Chehalias for the past couple of days with my drama peeps. It was awesome. New friends, amazing food, halarious improv, silly 2am talks with the girls, filming our thrillers and oh practicing for Macbeth. Aha so sad to be gone but yet it feels good to be home.
Christmas is in 7 days, ahhh crap. I still need to buy for my dad and he's always the hardest. Watch me go to the mall the day before christmas and find a random gift :) or maybe I'll make him something really cheesy. My dad has to like it, I'm his daughter ahah. I'm just really looking forward to spending my break with my family and our tradition every year is on Christmas eve we go to a candle light service and sing chrsitmas carols. After that we go home and put all our presents under the tree and open them. Some wacky German idea, but hey I'm not complaining :)
Need to get some rest, peaceout girl scout.

oh.

apparently this is all my facebook statuses put together in a year. 2010 awwh yeah :)

expecto patronum

I want to see harry potter number seven again :) ! ahhh.

be thankful

Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do. because if you hold on, you'll never meet anyone else. since I've gotten past old heartbreak i made myself open and ready to meet someone new.... and i did :)

praying for a friend.

Dear God,
I don't understand why things happen. But i know your incomplete control. I pray for my friend, and her family.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.- Jeremiah 29:11

dance dance

so we had our dance at school. took some pretty awesome photos.. :)

speak your mind.

She was a girl who spoke her mind, never played games, and acted confident when she could barely stand looking in the mirror. She didn't gloat her achievements, or tell of them even though she had many. She lived in mistakes, in past regrets, and she's just beginning to realize that sometimes, you can't change things. That you can't go back in the past and sometimes, you just have to move on because life's too short to dwell on the unchangeable.