empty

I don't know why, but lately i've been feeling sorta empty in side. I'm asking myself, is this it? Is this life? Is there more to life than this? Yeah of course i'm graduating this year. But what the heck am i gonna do when i'm done? I want to do photogaphy. But somehow i don't know if i'm going to get very far. Will i be able to make a living off of it. I don't know. Thats what i keep telling myself....

I don't know. And because of that i'm scared.

crying in the rain

Everything just has to build up. and once you hold it in too long it just comes out. Luckily i got out of my car just in time. I am having this big fight with my friend and i needed to get out. just walk, and as soon as i got out i walked. i walked and walked till it started pouring. but thank goodness for that cause no one could then see my tears. Today was a rough day, i thought my best friend betrayed me, yes she kinda did but she didn't plan too. It just kinda happened, but then i thought to myself. Why am i holding on to something that's hurting me. I want my friend to be happy and after 17 minutes of me just balling on the phone to her we figured it out. It wasn't easy and it won't be easy for me. But i have to get over it. I need to get over it.


Why hold onto someone when they care for someone else :(

grad pranks

so since its grad year, here comes grad pranks. yes its only like the 3rd week of school but we had a perfect window for a prank.. Our school went on a run in support of Terry Fox. Me and becca woke up early today to fill up water balloons so we could chuck em at people walking by, it was a load of fun and the teachers thought it was pretty funny. So we did that in the beginning, after we went back to the school and NO ONE was there. So we thought it was a perfect time to do something. we drove to save on and bought a pack of 40 pads and shaving cream. So we blocked the stairwells with chairs and stuck pads over the main windows spelling "GRAD '11". We put shaving cream all over the washrooms. It was actually halrious, too bad we got in trouble. hey its only an hr of community work. But it was SO worth it.

NO REGRETS BABY.

GRAD 2011 !

God can do miracles

Praying for my bud mike kraan who recently got in a super bad car accident. Its so crazy how things can turn so fast. I was just with him a week before the accident and now he's lying in a hospital bed in an induced coma. I love him and miss him lots. I know he will pull through this. If you guys want to follow his progress please go to http://michaelweloveyou.tumblr.com/

love you bud. see you soon

new driver :)

So i survived my 1st week of grade 12. It has been pretty insane but this years gonna be amazing. Today i went for my road test and passed ! woop. so i'm pretty excited cause i get to drive to youth tonight, which is gonna be pretty exciting ! :)

grade 12?

Yep, this was my last time of my first day of school. If that makes any sence. Finally after 12 years of school. This is it. We are SO close. I can't wait to start this year. Today we had half a day so we had assembly to welcome our new name. Yep Fraser Valley is no longer so, we are now Surrey Christian Secondary. Kinda lame, but who cares we are the first to graduate from there ! Kinda cool . We got our classes and then were sent home.

Later today i went with my friend Rebecca Koole to go take pictures. And i'm SO PROUD of these photos. seriously my best work yet. Not to brag :) ahah but i'm super duper excited for these. I used a new program and i think they turned out awesome. Check some out. The rest are on my facebook page !

This year's gonna be amazing.

photoshoot ideas

so i wanna do some sort of cute indie kinda shoot. these are some of my ideas

something real.

All I want is something real. Someone who understands how I feel. I don't need another broken heart. I just want a love that won't fall apart.