What does my future hold?

I can't fall asleep anymore. It's driving me insane, and while I wait to fall asleep my head is going crazy with so much thinking. And so, at 1:51am while I try to get some rest I keep thinking of my plans for the future.
I've known what I wanted to do for 4 years now. It was difficult for me in middle school not knowing what my future holds. I'm a perfectionist and when it comes to my future I need everything planned and organized on paper. When grade 9 came around somehow I came across photgraphy. My dad is pretty into photography as a hobby so it kinda helped me find my muse. I always wanted to play around with his camera and eventually with my mcdonalds pay check I saved up for my first SLR camera. It arrived on my 15th birthday and I was ecstatic. The camera (in which I still own today) was crazy to learn. To me photography was just taking pictures, I thought the camera did all the hard work. Learning was a challenge. I'm still learning new things today. Now since I'm totally off topic... Aha. This year I'm graduating and I'm scared as hell (pardon my language). Planning for your future is scary! My dream future would go a little like so... Graduate highschool, take a year off and work. Maybe some simple as full time at Sears as a photographer in their portrait studio to an assistant photographer to someone who works downtown vancouver in a studio, do some of my own photography business on the side, after a year go to Langara college and go into their photo imaging program, after that (I think it's 2 years?) buy a loft downtown where I can live as well as have a studio and office for my photography :) that's where I hope to be in the next 5 years or so. If any of that works out. My main concern now is money and graduating. Hopefully God will bless me with some funds to fulfill my dreams. That, and work my ass off for that studio downtown, aha.

Now to bed.

everything.

I hope so.

trying to find a place in this world.

I dont know what i want, So dont ask me, cause im still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road,
im just walking. Trying to see through the rain coming down. Even though im not the only one, that feels the way i do.
Im alone, on my own, and that's all i know. I'll be strong, i'll be wrong, Oh, but life goes on. Oh, im just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

- t swift

snap snap :)

This week has been pretty good photography wise. I got to shoot two shoots this week. The first was my pastor's family. They wanted some pictures of their boys. And there adorable! I don't usually take pictures of kids, and this was one of my firsts so it was harder than i thought. Those boys had so much energy which caused me to keep up with them. I took over 100 pictures and around 30 of them turned out. It was a challenge but i had so much fun with the boys. Here's a couple shots of them...

 

And then today i got the privilege to take pictures of my one longest friends miss taryn galloway :) She had asked me to take some pictures of her and her brother. I had so much fun with them. I'll be updating with those pictures to come. 

stronger

you should never forget about the past, everything happens for a reason. instead learn from the past, learn from your mistakes & learn from every experience in life. never forget those that have changed you either for the good or the bad because they have made you who you are. always remember that life is meant to be tough, to challenge you, and to make you stronger.

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa, just to let you know my canon 60D camera hasn't come yet. I understand your pretty busy and the elf's could have misplaced it. But if you can get it here asap that would be awesome. k thanks. Love, Savannah :)

hardest moments

One of the hardest moments in life is deciding whether you should give up, or try harder.