leap of faith

Photography is ALL i have been thinking about these past months. When it comes to planning my future that's the only thing that pops into my mind. It scares me because I don't know if photography can take me that far in this world. I want to do it because it's my passion but I don 't know if I will survive in this career. I guess I just gotta take a leap of faith.

PS - My business cards came in :)

What does my future hold?

I can't fall asleep anymore. It's driving me insane, and while I wait to fall asleep my head is going crazy with so much thinking. And so, at 1:51am while I try to get some rest I keep thinking of my plans for the future.
I've known what I wanted to do for 4 years now. It was difficult for me in middle school not knowing what my future holds. I'm a perfectionist and when it comes to my future I need everything planned and organized on paper. When grade 9 came around somehow I came across photgraphy. My dad is pretty into photography as a hobby so it kinda helped me find my muse. I always wanted to play around with his camera and eventually with my mcdonalds pay check I saved up for my first SLR camera. It arrived on my 15th birthday and I was ecstatic. The camera (in which I still own today) was crazy to learn. To me photography was just taking pictures, I thought the camera did all the hard work. Learning was a challenge. I'm still learning new things today. Now since I'm totally off topic... Aha. This year I'm graduating and I'm scared as hell (pardon my language). Planning for your future is scary! My dream future would go a little like so... Graduate highschool, take a year off and work. Maybe some simple as full time at Sears as a photographer in their portrait studio to an assistant photographer to someone who works downtown vancouver in a studio, do some of my own photography business on the side, after a year go to Langara college and go into their photo imaging program, after that (I think it's 2 years?) buy a loft downtown where I can live as well as have a studio and office for my photography :) that's where I hope to be in the next 5 years or so. If any of that works out. My main concern now is money and graduating. Hopefully God will bless me with some funds to fulfill my dreams. That, and work my ass off for that studio downtown, aha.

Now to bed.

snap snap :)

This week has been pretty good photography wise. I got to shoot two shoots this week. The first was my pastor's family. They wanted some pictures of their boys. And there adorable! I don't usually take pictures of kids, and this was one of my firsts so it was harder than i thought. Those boys had so much energy which caused me to keep up with them. I took over 100 pictures and around 30 of them turned out. It was a challenge but i had so much fun with the boys. Here's a couple shots of them...

 

And then today i got the privilege to take pictures of my one longest friends miss taryn galloway :) She had asked me to take some pictures of her and her brother. I had so much fun with them. I'll be updating with those pictures to come. 

i don't know where to start...

So i've been doing this online photography course that i hope to have finished by the end of this summer. Yeah, that probably WON"T happen. I'm currently on module 4 out of 6. And theirs like 3 assignments in each module. Well my teacher just posted my newest assignment, and i have no idea where to start. I have so much work to do on photoshop, editing and putting photos together. It is actually insane. This is only Photography 11, i do NOT want to know what Photography 12 has in store. Wish me luck on this .. journey? AGH.